More than words

2010-11-23T21:03:00.004-06:00

Hello Blog world,

I really want to make this blog work. I started it with the intentions of fully being committed to it, after all, I love to write. I guess loving to write doesn't always cut it :(

A lot of things have happened in the past few months and I wouldn't really know where to begin. I guess this post is just to say that I'm back and I'm here to stay. I'll do my best to update and share my views with you just as the description says: 'The World and I'.

Have a wonder evening, and Happy Thanksgiving!

~Al

X,Y & Z New Moon

2010-07-21T12:51:00.003-05:00

Hi!

Okay, I actually have a lot to do. Test tomorrow, just got done with two, plus I have to move to the new apartment by next weekend!!!

Goodness me, I will soon disappear.

So, Y is back, and Z is not the person I thought he was. But there are two new additions to the Saga, V & W, lol. Sorry, I don't mean to confuse anyone. W has comma, because I'm afraid I will feel the wrath of a woman. As for V, it's unconditional.

But, W is the sweetest ever, plus I will always be healthy, lol.

Okay, too many lols in this post, but that's it. You can tell I'm rushing. No time to think, but yes, this is the New Moon. Let's see how the story unfolds!

O, an irrelevant aside: My hair is finally growing and now makes more sense.

There is a time and season for everything, this is my hair growth time! Woohoo

~Al

2010-04-19T14:27:00.000-05:00

School is thriving. I have but a month for this semester to be over. Yay! I'm so happy, honestly

Okay, that's all

God bless

~Al

Peer pressure

2010-03-30T23:27:00.004-05:00

So I really tried. But at the end of the day, I lost to peer pressure.

My endeavors had better be worthwhile -or else.

Lol, just felt like writing something since I hadn't posted in while.

Nothing much is going on here. Just school, life, more school, life, etc. Also, I have been writing a lot too o. It has been awesome. I should post one of my Poems here for you to see. Just so you know, I wasn't writing about anyone in particular:

Musings
Many times I’ve contemplated,
Should I tell you how I feel?
Would you think all is fabricated,
And my words are so unreal?

Darkness and light cannot be compared,
But will you accept me as I am?
And when in the night I am scared,
Will you make my fears to scram?

Silently I stare and think of you
I wonder, do I ever cross your mind?
And if to you I give a cue;
Will you come or stay behind?

Days have passed with you not near,
Should I seek your face nearby?
Perhaps you’ll know that I’m sincere,
Or will you think me a flie?

I wonder what you like to do;
Maybe I can join your fun?
And with you your dreams pursue,
Or do you think of me and shun?

If you hear my words someday,
Will you know it’s you?
And if we ever have our way,
Will you love me too?

Okay, there you have it. Yes, I love to rhyme -not that I do it on purpose. It just happens. I think I have only one or two poems that do not rhyme. I like rhythm a lot. Lol. Anyway -

Have a blessed day, love you all. My next post should be soon. I may have news :)

~Al

My Killer Semester

2010-01-14T07:03:00.005-06:00

This semester is a Killer!

Hm, this my semester ehn, it's only God that can help me, of course, I also have to help myself! The workload is so much and it's not as if I'm in my final year yet oh. Egba mi. O well, it's me that decided to pack all those classes, so I blame no one.

Classes:
BIO 102 (Biology)
SPH 107 (Speech)
BUS 260 (Statistics)
ENG 251 (American Lit I)
ENG 252 (American Lit II)
PSY 200 (Psychology)
Total? ---> 19hrs

Q: So, should I really be spending my time on this blog writing?
A: Yes, why not.

I know God has already started helping me in these classes because He has given my wonderful Professors. Especially for the Statistics that I was sad I didn't get the fabled other teacher, but my own Instructor is simply awesome, although he tells too many stories.

He even said he loves African students because they are usually smart! This means I better be the best student in this class o. Hm, or maybe I can pretend not to be an African, never speak in class (if at all I do, practice over and over so it comes out perfect, lol). Who am I kidding, my first name alone will give me away. Don't worry professor, I won't let you down! O, he sympathizes a lot with women especially women having cramps, lol. He said,'Your cramps are my cramps, be well'.

As for these Literature classes I'm taking so, hm. I like Literature, after all, i write poems and I believe my works can be studied and analyzed. My problem however? Research papers -I'm so terrible at them. Maybe because I don't put enough time to it, or it's not just my thing. Don't get me wrong, I can research, in fact I think I'm very good at that but putting it on paper in an apprehensive manner is my greatest Battle.

Biology, let me not even go there. The fight is between the BOOK and I.
Psychology, well what can I say. I have a crazy teacher and a funny class. I'm however happy I never have to take another Psychology class again.

Speech: They said I do not speak well so I must learn how to. Lol. Little do they know that I speak better than many. Take that! My Teacher is a character. In our last class, he told everyone to bring an object to use to talk about ourselves. Stand in front of class and speak -hm. It was... I got up there and he started asking questions about Nigeria and the President. I told the class our President is missing, lol. They all laughed. He questioned me about the government, politics, etc. In all honesty, I was really impressed with myself. I know a lot about Nigeria without even realizing it, even names of government officials.
Oya, clap for me. Thank you.

He finally let me speak. I brought a a Piano Music Sheet, not just any, but Bach's Prelude in C which happens to be my favorite. I even played a recording of myself from my phone. They said I close my eyes too much; they do not know what I see, lol.

Oh, by the end of this semester, I would have completed 63 hours. I'm very happy which means in another 2years tops, I will be done.

Bye bye for now, I have to get ready for...hm, not sure what I'm getting ready for, but I have to go though, lol.

PS: Someone told me this:

Eat Breakfast like a King
Eat Lunch like a Prince
Eat Dinner like a Beggar

God bless and remember to pray

~Al

~Destination: 14th Ave~

2010-01-11T04:25:00.006-06:00

Hello oh, hm, it's me again.

Mutallab day - Jan 9th 2010:

So with all the Mutallab going on, I had thought my flight back to the US would be unbearable and annoying. In fact, I actually had high expectations. Once, I dreamed that I was being searched (body) and instead of the guy to do his job, he was just molesting me and I slapped him. Lol.

I honestly looked forward to it happening and me slapping whoever, whether man or woman. I know, my mind wonders to far places, but you know, you can never tell. All these people, hm. I even thought they were actually going to use body scanners on me and other victims of the circumstance. Yes oh, I'm a Victim and anyone else who's been subjected to all these.

Those who had left before me heading to the US informed me of how thorough there search was and I was quite disturbed by all of it. I was really not looking forward to traveling. Alone, traveling such a long distance from Port Harcourt to USA is tiresome, talk-less of the extreme searches.

Jan 9th 2010(Port Harcourt airport)

My Prayer -God, please take control.

This kind of airport that doesn't have an AC, hm. I can't shout. I thank God for my daddy's people who were helping me lift my boxes and all of that.
Box X-ray: We went in for the first luggage search process (X-ray). They don't even try self. Open the box and show it to the whole world. Can't they be discreet about it. Cheum. I don't even know what they were searching for. Then the first set of men to check were asking me to do New Year for them. I did oh, I told them 'Happy New Year, may it be filled with only happiness'. They are like which kind New Year is that, that I should by coke or something. Me I just smiled.
Second checking by women. One of them was begging me to give her my set of eye shadows. See me see wahala oh. 'Do New Year for me na, give me this one na'. I was just looking at her and it was my favorite eye-shadow. lol.

Check-in: I had checked in online earlier that day so I went to get my tickets and weigh my luggage. 50.4lbs and 51.2lbs. Kai, I thought they would make me reduce it, but the lady said it was okay and even asked me if I wanted to check-in my carry-on for no extra cost. Ah! Miracle. I said yes oh, I don't mind but that I would have to take a purse from one of my other boxes to put my wallet and documents in. Hm, I checked in 3 boxes and mind you, I was in economy class oh. No hassle, lol.

Customs/Immigration: Not sure which it was, maybe both self. lol.

Security Check: So finally time to go in and wait at my gate. Mind you, in Port Harcourt airport there's only one gate. lol. Anyway, passed through everything, no hassled apart from the man in front of me. He carried one big gongolo of Mouth wash in his carry-on and when they took it from it, katakata burst oh. He's like why are they seizing it and that when it was checked at X-ray, they didn't say anything. That is it his responsibility to make sure everything he packed is suitable as a carry-on. LMAO. He was there causing unnecessary commotion when he was 100% at fault and me I was hot. I just had to interfere because he was wasting my time! 'Sir, I do not mean to interrupt but generally, liquids are not allowed not to talk of the big bottle of mouth-wash.' At least he listened to me. Hm, I won't lie oh, I though he would give me one dirty slap and ask me who I am to be correcting him. Lol. Security Check- safe.

Awaiting boarding: So hungry and they were selling 2 pieces of snail for N600, imagine life oh. I just had to buy it. It was hard ehn and the oyinbo sitting in front of me was chuckling and smiling at me while I ate. It was so embarrassing. It was hard oh, I won't lie. To bite was problem that I even had to put the whole thing in my mouth. Imagine my face. Thank God for napkins sha. Flight delayed, ended up making a new American Friend from Houston who was in Nigeria on business. Most of my conversations with people always end up with Christianity or at least it comes in somewhere. My arguments of the night 'My ignorant American friends' and 'Christianity is not a Religion'. I will save that conversation for another time. Flight delay (as usual)

All on board: I was admiring the Flight crew o jare. French people, there's just something sophisticated about them. Especially the male species. BTW I took Air France. I found myself sited at Class Premium Economy -people, no be small comfort. The tv screen was bigger, there was space, my seat could move in two directions, the tray could be long or short, I had head phones already there waiting...in fact, let me stop there. I was overwhelmed. What a nice experience. We stopped to pick up the Lagos passengers.

I don't know about you guys, but me I always hope some nice looking young man or lady would be sitting beside me and not otherwise. I'm never lucky :(. I even wished the friend I made at the airport would be the one sitting beside me. Well it was a young-elderly man who was even forcing me to eat oh. See wahala. I had already told him I don't eat on the Planes because I get sick but he kept waking me up everytime they brought food. He even asked the Air hostess on my behalf if they had any other kind of food for me. I mean, I thank the man for trying to take care of me, but I wanted to sleep. Lol

Jan 10th 2010 (Paris Airport)

Arrival Paris CDG: Went through security check for my connecting flight. I was still waiting for the extreme search thing oh, but nothing yet. When I got to my gate, they had blocked the area and said that all flights going to the US would have another search before boarding. I had 4 more hours till my next flight. (Flight delay, as usual). They said once you go through the security check, you can't leave the gate area. No problem, it's not like I had to use the restroom or buy anything. I was the second person they searched. It wasn't even thorough. In fact the Lady and I were conversing in french and she told me I had a lovely French accent. Blush-blush. 'Merci madame, j'habitais en France'. They didn't even single me out for holding Nigerian Passport oh, Everyone had the same type of search, even children. In fact, the latter people searching were even asking passengers to remove their shoes. They didn't ask me any of that. I thought they would subject me to a Mutallab, but no.

Boarding: I was hoping for the special Premium Economy seat oh, but who dash. In fact, my seat was terrible. Not at rear of the cabin, but at the last row before a wall. As usual, I started sleeping and we had another flight delay while on board. 2 hours. The journey was long but the plane was moving fast and made it to Atlanta 30mins after the supposed arrival time. Imagine, after over 2 hrs delay, it was only 30mins late? Exactly, the plane was moving faster than normal.

Arrival: Very sweet, safe and sound. Shortest time I've ever spent at Immigration and Customs(30mins all together, no jokes). I declared my snails, oh sweet sweet snails. I had to re-check in the luggage and take the train to the South Terminal at baggage claim. We went through security check again. There was water in my purse and I told them they could have it, biko, me I have a shuttle to get to. My Shuttle was to leave at 4.00pm and by the time I had gotten to the Baggage claim, it was already 4.15pm. I called the shuttle service but they didn't pick up. Sad me. I went outside to make inquiries and found out I could take a taxi straight to Tuscaloosa for $220. Hm, me I no see money reach oh so I called my dad and he said 'Go ahead, that's better than having to wait for the 8 o'clock shuttle'. Me I was mourning the money.

Departure: I told the lady at the counter that I would return. I went to get my luggage and on my way to the counter, my phone started ringing. It was the Shuttle people and she told me the driver was still outside waiting (4.40pm). Ehn! I was so happy, see inner Thanksgiving. I got to the bus, the driver helped me with my things and on our way we were, -to Birmingham. From Birmingham I then took a Taxi to my Apartment in T-town. The taxi driver was just talking and talking and talking and I was like 'Ey God oh, please make this man stop talking. I just want to get home and sleep'. God didn't answer my prayers. Lol

We arrived my apartment at 7.30pm and the guy gave me a discounted rate for some reasons he stated. Yay! I was back at last! BTW, I FORGOT TO ADD HOW TERRIBLy COLD IT WAS/IS. I got into the Apartment and it was like a Freezer. I put on the heat, called/texted who I needed to contact, brought out my snail and ate 5.

Praise God! Prayer! Happiness!

2 hours later, I was in bed and woke up around 3.30am. Returned the Nigerian missed calls, Facebooked a bit, and now typing this note.

Conclusion/Testimony:

I'm very grateful to God because I didn't go through anything out of the ordinary. I got the same treatment as everyone else, in fact better, polite treatment. I said, 'God, please take control', and He really did!

I won't lie sha, I was looking forward to the slap. LOL. Not like I would have even slapped anyone self. Maybe I'll break down and start crying for them and they would put me on CNN world. Lol. I can think too much. I was not alone through out my journey and He accompanied me through people. I pray God will also accompany you through people and His word. You're not alone!

~Al

_The weekend_

2010-01-03T16:15:00.004-06:00

It's me again,

If I say my weekend wasn't fun, then I'ld be seriously lying to you. Even though it wasn't the best weekend ever, I sure had a good time. It started with the opening of an outlet for my mummy's eatery in Port Harcourt! Yay, congratulations to her. The best parts of the new place for me are the mirrors, lol. Actually, I think any girl would like them.

At the New Year's cross over party on 31st December, I kinda felt old in the crowd because apart from the adults that were there, 60% of the population were youngsters. I started feeling nostalgic. :(

Don't get me wrong, a few of my age mates were there, but still. I started remembering when I was much younger and would play/gist with these (now) youngsters who were definitely much more younger. Lol. Anyway, it was fun all the same. We danced, had fireworks and we prayed into the New Year. My best part of the night was when they played Igwe (Midnight Crew) and everyone got up to start dancing and singing. SO entertaining.

New Year's day itself was a bore, but at least I got to rest!

Moving on to Saturday, I went for a Pool Party, but the ironic part of it was no one swam, lol. Then, what's up with guys wanting to dance back to front? It's called grinding right? Me I don't like that kind of dance oh. I either dance front-to-front together, front-to-front apart, by myself or cuddle depending on our level of intimacy/friendship. Lol. Okay, that doesn't sound right, but yea, something like that. The party was really nice though, I made new friends that I plan on keeping in touch with.

I was telling someone about school and stuff and she actually though I was fibbing, because she couldn't believe I had already completed 3 yrs of university before deciding to switch my major and practically start all over again. Anyway! She didn't believe me because she thought I was only 19, lol. If I was really only 19, I would have had to have started Uni when I was 15. Oh well, it was a nice compliment. I plan on being tight buddies with her cause she's really cool.

Sunday, went to church and went to Silverbird with family to watch 2012. It's a really interesting movie, so if you haven't seen it yet, I'ld advice you go watch it. It's kinda like Noah's arc remake. Hm, but if the world was really coming to an end, Jesus would come down, so I think that movie was just Bogus!

I hope you remembered to pray today and that you always do remember!

~Al

~Just Me~

2010-01-01T19:10:00.002-06:00

Hi, hi

This is a New Year and so I thought I'ld write a little about me. First and foremost, thank you for stopping by. I hope you'll enjoy my blog as time goes on. It's a New Year so I'll try my best to be up-to-date with happenings all around me and within me.

It's possible that some of you might already know who I am, while most might not. I'm a somewhat small and short person who weighs some-some. Many used to say I looked younger than my age which is 22, but,hmm, I think this New Year has made me start aging oh, or maybe I've become more paranoid than I thought. I live and school in some dead-zone place like this, it's located in the US. In the south to be specific. They call it Sweet Home Alabama, but do not be deceived, it tastes nothing like sugar or chocolate.

I love all my friends dearly even though sometimes I feel like spanking them. I'm really shy in nature, but it's not as noticeable when we mingle after many months of being friends. That's what I think though, or maybe not. Anyway, I'm a random person, quite energetic because I can dance from morning to night, non-stop. Sometimes I can be like a restless young child just looking to have fun and feel alive. However, these days, I feel so old! Why?

I love love roller coasters! An Easy way to my heart: invite me to go to Cedar point. We'll be friends for life!

Once upon a time, I could stay glued to the computer from morning to night, pretending to do something useful with my life, but nowadays, the internet is so boring, even Facebook that I once loved so much.
Hmmm, let's see...
Oh yes, I'm single ~not by choice, but condition. Lol -but seriously

My mum calls me Princess and my dad calls me Miss... Not even sure why I said that. I have an Uncle who won't let me forget how I pronounced my name when I was young, lol. But I cherish him a lot. One of my favorite uncles!

I'm seeking to know God more and keep Jesus within me. Sometimes I find it hard to pray even when I know I'm supposed to, and sometimes I put myself down. <--- not good, but oh well. Things are changing :) Better still, this is a New Year so things will definitely be positively different!

Last but not the least, I can't separate my reasoning from my faith because it's my faith that guides my being; therefore, guides my reasoning. Hence, I try to put God in everything as much as I can. Okay, that's about it for now.

Oh! I now know my best chocolate, it's Ferrero Rocher

~Al

I don't know what title to use.

2009-08-03T14:48:00.006-05:00

My weekend was slightly different than others. My friend had just come back from her summer vacation and was moving into a new place. She asked me to hang out and follow her while she bought some things for her new place. Of course, being that I have being somewhat stressed all summer, this was a good request. Don't worry, there's nothing interesting about this side of the story.

Saturday:
She asked me to hang out with her while she checked her classes/rooms, etc. I said sure. Normally she would come pick me up, but I told her we should meet somewhere instead. I was in the mood to ride my bicycle. It was HOT! I hadn't gone outside when I made the decision, because had I known, I would have made her come pick me up instead. However, I decided to wear shorts this day. Like those running kinds above mid-thigh. I haven't worn shorts to walk on the road before. The only other times I remember wearing shorts were for a stage performance, and at the beach that looked like a river.

Anyway, I decided to dress like the people in my community. Shorts and a very casual and laid-back t-shirt with canvas, abi sneakers; whatever you people call it. The t-shirt is the type you get for free at a concert or after and event. On the other hand, my friend decided to wear jeans and a really pretty top with sandals. She immediately commented on my dressing. She's like 'I've never seen you dress this way before' and I'm like, me neither. She then let out several sighs that she dressed the way she did cause I liked dressing up and she didn't want to just be in t-shirts and shorts, and I'm like I dressed the way I am because she likes wearing t-shirts and shorts, and I didn't want to look over-dressed.

This was a very funny situation. We laughed excessively. I told her I don't like wearing shorts because aside from the fact that I'm not really comfortable walking around in them, but also because it causes unnecessary attention from men/guys. Just there and then, a couple of guys confirmed what I meant. I also told her that I didn't want to cause anyone to sin <----in other words, lust.

Of course, there are different types of shorts. I wear shorts, don't get me wrong -in the house, around the house, etc. I'm not saying my body is perfect oh, in fact, far from it. I don't like it when guys stare at me. It makes me really, really uncomfortable. I don't mean a casual look, but you know, those kinds? If you're a girl, I'm sure you've received them before and if you're a guy, you've probably given them before.

Today, my question is, if you're a female, what makes you dress the way you do? If you wear a top that exposes half of your breast and you complain that people are staring at you, then that's really weird. The flesh is weak. The truth is that if I saw a girl dress that way, I would also stare secretively, lol. I'm not a lesbian, I promise.

Although, some people are just perverted and are not necessarily affected by the flesh being weak, but just need a lot of help in regards to that. Meaning, even if you cover your entire body, they still come after you in a very perverted way. Hey, I like looking good oh, in fact, I like looking very good, but I don't like doing it at the expense of my body. There's a limit to the shortness, tightness and exposures I can wear.

Who knows, maybe I don't wear shorts because of my multicolored body, or perhaps because of my 'less than' Halley Berry body. Lol. All in all, I'm just wondering why we dress the way we do, we all must have our reasons to wear certain things.

Hmm, this was seriously not the aim of this post. I wanted to talk about my entire, weekend especially the guy I met on Sunday. Oh well...I should really get back to my Biology...

~Al

What list are you currently on?

2009-07-29T15:16:00.013-05:00

I've been on various lists in my life, I mean there are so many. To name a few;

a) List of Noise makers ~
b) List of Portion workers ~
c) List of Spoon washers ~
d) etc

Kinda pointless even naming them all. However, sometime last week, I found out that I am on the Dean's List. Woohoo...let's celebrate a little

Alright, I'm done. I was really happy to find out. Not that it's going to make me any more beautiful, or smarter -alas, it won't even make me have more money. How I wish though. Most important even, it won't make me be any closer to God. The point of it is that I'm so happy to know that my effort and hard-work got me on that kind of list. A good one. The question I'm asking myself now is 'Will I be able to remain on it?'

Let's hope.

When I relate this list with my spiritual life however, I just keep wondering, what kind of list has God put me on? I know the list I want to be in, and I know I will definitely 'by His Grace' be in that list and stay there.
The Question I have for you today is 'What list are you currently on?'. Not only for your earthly lives, but your spiritual ones.
Of course I'm not talking about the Dean's list oh. But in your place of work, in your character, etc.

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My exams start and end next week and I'm so eager to get it done with but the sad part is that school starts a week after then. Bummer! However, my parents are coming and I'm so excited. I've just been thinking of all the homemade food. Okro soup, Ogbono, Fried Rice, Pepper soup, Egusi soup...please if you know what I mean, start salivating. Oh did I forget to mention the shopping and the fellowships and all of that? Too excited in fact.

Although, I do have to start thinking of what I'll have my parents do, since they've decided to 'quit their jobs and normal daily lives' to stay here for a month! A whole month! The worst part is that where I am is like a dead zone. Do you know those Verizon Wireless commercials where they talk about Dead zones and all, or is it T-mobile? Well, none of the phone companies can bail me out of this one, unfortunately.

Today, I want you to Count Your Blessings. You know the song right? Count your blessings name them one by one...
--------> "Click me" <---------
Familiar tune?

The devil accuses us of things we've not done or should have done but didn't do. He's always picking on us, making us feel worse off about things. It shouldn't be like that. Don't let him win over your situation. I'm sure there may be sometimes you're meant to be happy but you're feeling down, -Yup, the devil's work.

Think Positive, be positive, behave positive and live positive.
"Let the light into your life and the darkness will flee" ~from my Daily Might.

Bye, it's almost time for my Calculus test. Silly people, giving us test a week before exams, Mcheum.

~Al

I asked the air, "Why me?"

2009-07-27T16:23:00.013-05:00

Do you ever sit, stare at nothing in particular and wonder to no one around, "Why me?"
Or perhaps you shut your eyes to sleep and you still question the darkness, "Why me?"
Or, maybe something tragic just happened and as the tears roll down your eyes, you cry. "Why me?"

Then we were once the same kind of persons.
There are so many things that have happened in my life that have made me question myself those two words. and honestly, the answers aren't evident sometimes.

The plans I had for myself were simple, according to any other female's plans (maybe some males too) I would believe..

1) Get into a good University for Undergraduates
2) Maybe/maybe not get a good boyfriend who may later be the one
3) Graduate by the age of 21/22
4) Start Masters that same year or the next (For those in Nigeria, perhaps NYSC befor Masters)
5) Get a good job
6) Get Married
7) "Mama...Dada", and live happily ever after.
8) All the above before/by the age of 30

I mean, this is it right? The typical path. However, my case is different in some aspects of the list, and it makes me question "Why me?"

There's a reason for everything that happens in one's life, but sometimes I wonder how that reason can be made manifest. It's true that some of us never find out the reason, while some of us do, but there always is.

A very good reason I've come to realize is that sometimes, we are going on the wrong path and even though there are signs along it that show us to turn around:

We still go on. Our inability to see these signs doesn't make us any less smarter, but for those deeply rooted in Christ, even though we still can't see those signs, even if it's for God to use a helicopter to carry us away, He will do it! At this point though, a lot of damage may have already been caused.
[Figuratively speaking]Perhaps your shoes began to wear and the sole of your feet got injured, or perhaps something flew right into your eyes and you became blind <-----whatever the case anything at all. Although some of those signs along the road may not be from God. When God is trying to lead us through the right path, we may see signs telling us we can't make it there.

Stop Wasting Your time!

In the process, you'll have to walk through the snow, the fog, the heat and the rain. But hold on to God's Unchanging Hands, and you'll get there. Hmmm, maybe not in one piece, but you'll surely get there. Although, He'll help patch you up. That's what He does, honestly!

So, I'm here at the age of Twenty-almost still undergoing my undergraduate degree with about 1,2,3 more years to go....
Do I still question the air much "Why me?" Not really, because the day I got my US-visa, I somewhat knew why it was me. I'll talk about that later...

Anyway! So the next time you go "Why me?", realize that God has a plan and that you're not walking alone. God didn't say we'll never face troubles/hardships/etc, but one thing we should know is that we'll never face them alone

Sometimes, things don't work out the way we want them to because God realizes we are not ready. This can apply in so many ways. I have to study for my Accounting test now, it's tomorrow and it's hard. Please pray for me, thanks!

See ya...

ps: When we do fall astray, He's ready with His rod. Although God's corrections are sometimes hard to take, they're a token of His love. Always remember this:
"My son, do not despise the chastening of the Lord, nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him; for whom the Lord loves He chastens" (Hebrew 12:5-6)

When your earthly father flogged/flogs you, he did/does it because he may have thought/think that's the right way, but when your Heavenly Father flogs you, He always knows that's the right way!

~Al

They called me "Grandma"

2009-07-26T14:40:00.008-05:00

"Yes Grandma", B said with a smile.

Back then, my friends called me Grandma. I didn't like hearing it, because it made me feel old. You know, Grandmothers are usually old, but I didn't relate it properly to myself. Of course I wasn't old, and I certainly didn't look old!

Today when I think back, I know why I was called that. I gave serious advises and encouragements!
I'm one to advise and encourage people a lot and honestly, I don't know where I get my words or energy from, but I'm good at it sometimes, and maybe oft times not. But I've advised and encouraged in the past, still advise and encourage in the present and will continue to advise and encourage in the future.

Actually, scratch that bit. I know where the energy and words come from, at least now I know. Anyway, sometimes I wish the way I am in some people's lives, that others will also be that way to me.(Not that some aren't like that though)
Remain positive and optimistic even when there seems to be no way, remembering that no matter how hard, cruel, sad and annoying things may be, there's always a reason for it all.

Being the caretaker over many years now, I've realized I don't know how to be taken care of. It's hard and it's somewhat weird when I think of it. I don't have so many people to talk to, because I know that people go through problems of their own, and for others, I get the wrongest words ever; at least words that are not even related to my concern(I'm not talking about advise from elders though).

It's easy for me to say 'Things will be fine'
It's easy for me to say 'God is in control'
It's easy for me to say 'Congratulations!'
It's easy for me to say 'I'm so happy for you :)'

<----Those statements aren't easy because they are just statements combined by words, but because that's how I really feel for whatever the occasion. Even with those that offend me, I still rejoice in their success and mourn for their downfalls. I believe it's the way God has made me, and I also believe that many are this way, which is a good thing!

"Is it good to care about others more than you care about yourself?"
I really don't know the answer to that question, because in some ways it's good and some, not so good. If I don't take care of myself, how will I care for others?

"You shall love your neighbor as yourself" <---- I try, I honestly really do, but sometimes my love is returned with

a)Lust( a few guys and I'm not even joking)
b)Envy
c)Hatred
d) A word not even found in the dictionary

So what do I do? I'm not a Saint and I don't know it all. I don't even want to know it all, that's boring.

We ask God for wisdom and guidance everyday and for Him to take the lead in all areas of our lives. I want you to know that in many cases, God presents a physical person in His stead for us, and it's up to us to follow His Lead. It's not always hard for me to know there's something troubling a friend, or just a mere acquaintance, and it's not always easy to have the right words to say, but one thing I always pray for is that my words will bless them along the way. It's happened so many times with some people I know, and they thanked me even when I didn't know what I did.

I'm not as strong as you think but my energy regenerates from various directions.

They called me "Grandma", but I'm not sure how much longer I can be just that, but with God by my side, I shall keep having strength and will. I need more Grandmas in my life, the ones that are God sent. I'll keep praying.

...
~Al

Brainstorming

2009-07-24T23:29:00.002-05:00

Well, today's topic isn't about either X, Y or Z. Although, I may write few notes about X and Z.

So, I have so many aspirations for the future, like getting married, having children and having a successful publication with the support of my Partners, family and friends. Two years ago, I was so sure of what I wanted, but lately, I can't seem to make up my mind. I'm so confused. <---speaking of my publication, that is.

So, I had various target populations which were divided into Men, Women and Kids but I really want to have an All-in-One Magazine, you know, where it covers a bit of everything and anything with more focus on some particular areas. However, we all know that the truth of the matter is that not all categories apply to everyone. For example, even though a few women might be interested in Electronic gadgets, they are mostly associated with Men and Kids. Do you see my confusion?

I've been brainstorming for a while now. I remember writing all these things down two years ago, but my papers are missing! :(
By the way, my Magazine cover is really pretty, especially the launching one. It's already pictured in my head, in fact I drew it out. There will be four successful ladies on the cover with me included! Isn't that awesome? A theme color will be purple -I'm sure some of you would have realized by now how much in love I am with the purples.

I really need advice right now, and I know I can't do it on my own. Oh well. People have been really supportive and I thank God for that.
Did I already say my friends and I have this company? I won't disclose its name. You have to guess. I must tell you though that it's going to be really successful. However, there's still so much we must do to achieve our goals.

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So, today, X updated the relationship status on facebook: In a Relationship and it's complicated.

???....no, seriously, with whom?

I'm not one to read horoscopes, nor do I believe in it, but today I stumbled upon one in a magazine. Out of curiosity, I decided to see what mine would say.

VIRGO:
"Stop obsessing over an unattainable guy/girl and you'll soon discover the hottie who's trying to get your attention. You'll be pleasantly surprised."

I laughed at first, then I sighed. The above summarized my Z... Oh well.

Anyway, please assist me in brainstorming. I'll appreciate it a lot.
God bless!

~Al

X, Y & Z

2009-07-20T22:26:00.000-05:00

I’m finally back. Thanks to someone, I realized I had a blog and hadn’t written anything in it for some time now. Also, I forgot my login info. Oh well –that’s me for you. A lot has happened in so little time, in fact, the bulk of the happenings took place in the shortest time ever. It seems that my beauty hasn’t deteriorated much over the past few years. I’m not vain, I assure you! Just something I’ve noticed; I mean, if not that, then the world hasn’t changed.

Anyway, so I got asked out by two people on two consecutive days. I really don’t want to discuss about their private lives, because it was probably said in confidence and so I won’t disclose either’s name. The thing about these two persons is that they are friends! I mean, what kind of game are they playing out? Let’s just name them X and Y. X asked me first and Y was very well aware, the following day Y decided to ask me and said X is very aware. To them it’s whoever wins my heart. As if!

I don’t necessarily judge people by what they’ve done in the past, but in X’s case, it’s quite complicated. I applaud the fact that X is God-fearing (X was with a Bible when we first met), not just because of the Bible, but by just listening and observing, you will know. As for Y, I’m not really sure, but for the fact that Y told me I was acting childish because we hugged and I almost slapped Y, Y deserves flogging. Rubbish and Nonsense. I didn’t even waste time to answer Y. Y is about 26, working in Shell , while X is about 26 too, but schooling.

X and Y still call me even though I’ve said no. More so, X’s been inviting me down to Florida for a paid vacation thing. As much as I would like that, I can’t fall into any trap oh. Biko.

*Exhales*

There’s someone out there I love with all my heart, well there are many, but there’s this particular person. My sister has told me to profess my love.

*Hahahahaha*

Like I would do that. If the person can’t see how much likeness is emitted from my actions and words, then too bad for the both of us. There’s more to my X and Y story, but we’ll leave it at that for now. Have you ever been in this X and Y situation? My sister tells me to hold on to X and let Y go, but me I want Z –not X or Y.

New new

2009-06-26T19:15:00.000-05:00

It's been almost a year now since I moved, and God knows so much has changed but I know he's still with me. As some of you may know, I'm in a new school, new environment and I even have to make new friends. It's been a somewhat difficult process, but it's getting so much better! It's unbelievably overwhelming.

I used to have a couple of friends in the past, but I have disowned some of them now. They actually think I'm joking when I say it, but it's really true. Anyway, maybe things will change come December. You'll be hearing from me. I may not always have interesting stories, but I'll surely always have something to say!

Al